ok so i have decided i have entered a new season in my life which calls for a new chapter in my blog/ book in the making. so i have decided i am done saying no for now, im going to start saying yes, there was still a few more areas of the say no section i wanted to touch on and i will probably finish thoughs up some time but its time to start saying yes.
believe it or not, all the stuff i have been struggling in the past has faded away. of course i have new stuff to deal with now. but i can stand tall and say i am no longer depressed or stuggling in the areas i have learned to just say no to. but the key you know of saying no is to yes to god.without god if you get stuck in a rut you better get comfty because your not going anywhere. and in my case i had gotten comfotable in my rut and didnt want to leave. in fact i didnt know i was even in a rut until i was out. i had to jump out of my comfort zone and hold on to god for my dear life. i had to completely separate myself from the people and things that were doing me no good and let god place me in a completely new senario. of course that scared me to death and i didnt think i was ready but..oh was i ready. if only i knew before, what i know now. the plans he had for me were oh so much better.
within two weeks of my new decision to let go and let god, god blessed me with a boyfriend. not just any boy friend but one who actually cares about and now actually loves me. and if you have read my previous blogs you would know that that is a big step all in itself. but that was not all god blessed me with in this decision. he also freed me from a ton of stuff. he blessed me with all new friends. what he did for me was like a breath of fresh air.
ok and looking at me know about 9 months later. still with my amazing boyfriend and friends god has given me i still dont have it figured out. but threw the whole emo thing, i really have come along ways and learned a ton. most people when they see me know could never have guessed i went through a six month period were i was so depressed i didnt want to talk to anyone. most people would never strike me as the girl that hung out with the wrong crowd. god has blessed me tremendously. i never can tell were he is going with stuff but im glad he is in control and not me...thats all i have to say.
and for those of you who have been reading this as i heal. thank you. thank you. thank you. you guys my support me the world to me. and i wouldnt be were i am today without you.
Tuesday, November 13, 2007
Sunday, August 26, 2007
SAY NO TO DEPRESSION
ME....DEPRESSED.....NO WAY!!!
At first you maybe denie that your even depressed...I did. I completely pulled away from my family, my best friends, and anyone else who tried to talk to me about what was wrong. I didnt know how to explain to then how I felt and in the pit of my depression I truely didnt think anyone cared, and I really didnt feel like I could trust anyone. Of course I was completely wrong about about that but depression can really mess with your head and emotions. I couldnt stand to hang out with my friends anymore, when I got home from school and on the weekends I wanted to just lock myself in my room and cry. The funny thing is at night when I was too tired to cry and I couldnt fall asleep I would open up my bible and read and almost instantly I was at peace and could rest I continued to do this for several months just reading the bible and asking God for peace but not really handing over my situation to him. So I continued to struggle for several more months with depression and by this point I felt dead on the end side and wondered why I felt like God had left me to fend for myself because I was reading my bible and praying constantly, for just a little hint of peace and comfort. It finally hit me how far I had fell when one night at a basketball tourney in between games I went outside to get some freash air and began to bawl because I was so confused and hurt and depressed I cried out to God and this time there was no peace that usually followed, in fact I felt more or less dead on the end side like i wasnt even myself anymore.so, i took a peice of broken glass that was outside and made what I thought was a small cut on my knee. After I did it it was like what in the world did I just do....oh my gosh I need to be put in a mental hospital, I've gone nuts!!! It was the first secret I ever kept from my parents, not until I broke down and told them was I able to recover and heal from it. I couldnt completely recover until I decided that I couldnt do anything to make my depression go away I and to give up and let God fix it. And almost a year leater I can say I have finail come out of that slump and feel a lot stronger and more mature than I did before. I think when I turned to God for help he took as a teaching oportunity and made me a stronger person.
WHAT YOU CAN DO ABOUT DEPRESSION
I coulnt completely recover until I decided that I couldnt do anthing to make my depression go away. I had to let go and let god fix it. And almost a year later I stand here and say I final climbed out of the deephole, the slump. And the crazy part is I feel stronger and more mature than i did before depression hit. i think what happened is when i turned to god at the end of mt rope he took advantage of the situation and made it a teaching oportunity to make me a stronger person. there is absolutly nothing you or anyone can do to make you not depressed. dont let anyone tell you that you have a bad attitude or need to clean up your act because if you are seriously depressed, you are emotionally and possible even spirtually ill. the thing is there is nothing you can do but give it to God, i would suggest you trying to fix it your self. you will just get more depressed because you wont be able to fix it. you may feel better for a little while but depression is like a virus...it can continously come back to haunt you when you get stress out, sick, or i discovered even when i got tired i would start to flip out again...depression is a scary thing guys, please dont mess around with it.
CUTTING,SUICIDE, AND OTHER STUPID THINGS PEOPLE DO WHEN THEY ARE DEPRESSED...
I don't want to spend a lot of time on this subject, well mainly because there is not much to say on it. My hope is some girl, or guy who was just as lost and depressed as I was or maybe even worst gets a hold of this. If I could tell the girl that found this that was struggling so much that she cut herself the first thing I would tell her is that there is hope. Second I would telll her to find someone she trust and go tell on herself, get it out in the open, tell a pastor, a teacher, a parent, whoever, TELL SOMEONE. I beg of you it will just keep getting worse if you dont tell someone trust me. Even though it may be the hardest thing you ever have to do, even if you think that your parents are going to be disappointed or even kill you TELL SOMEONE!!! Oh, and the last thing I think I would tell this girl is to STOP, stop cutting yourself you are Gods temple, you are a child of God, his creation and everytime you hurt yourself, your hurting God. please there is hope, tell on yourself and stop hurting yourself and I promise you it willl get better. PLEASE.... I've been there guys, I've got the scares to proof it, as you read this your impression is probably that im full of crap.....but I've been where you are and it hurts, if you don't do something about it, it will destroy you outside within. Make the decision and do something about it, its hard and its humbling, but the end willl justify the pain it took to get you there.
Obviously I didnt do this, because if I did I would be dead. Did you just catch what I said you would be DEAD forever, after you do the deed there is no going back, its permenat. And I'm not going to sit up on a soap box and preach to you. Truthfully I dont have anything else to say about this. Its your choice. But I can gaurenntee you that no situation is bad enough or too big for God. Before you make a decsion that could change your life for eternity....yes eternity.....stop and think.
Thats pretty much it guys, I mean there is a lot more I could say on all this stuff. When your in deep depression for over a year you kinda find out a lot of stuff. But, I like to keep things simple. I don't want to bore you with me just blabing on and on about something that you may not be able to relate to so I'm going to leave this one open to you guys. This is pretty much what this blog is based off, me fighting through and finally getting through this struggle of depression. All the stuff I have written so far is some how connnected so if you guys have any questions on any of them, let me know, shoot me a comment. I mean I don't have all the answers dont get me wrong but if you are struggling with something, I've been through a lot of stuff lately and I'm here for you if you need me!!!
Oh, this verse that I found helped me too, check it out!!! Psalms 116:1-2 I love the Lord, for he heard my voice; he heard my cry for mercy. Because he turned his ear to me, I will call on him as long as I live. If nothing else guys if there is no one you think you can trust, as I did, the one person I can guarrentee that will never lead you astray is God, give it all to him babe, he's the only one who matters anyways!!!
Monday, July 9, 2007
SAY NO TO SMACK TALK
Smack Talk....?
You may be wondering, what in the world do you mean smack talk... by smack talk I mean saying stuff to put others down to make yourself feel better, or criticzing for any other reason, complaining, judging, crusing, foolish talk, or lying. Your probablly like yeah, yeah we know how it goes we have heard this all before...and sure you might have but it never hurts to go over and over and over this stuff again because it is very very important in James it says "likewise the tounge is a small part of the body, but it makes great boasts. consider what a great forest is set on fire by a small spark". The tounge also is a fire, a world of evil among the parts of the body it corrupts th whole person, sets the whole course of his life on fire. There is so many verses on this smack talk i could go on for days...but ill try to just get to my point and move on.....
Slander....If You Dont Have Anything Nice To Say Dont Say Anything At All
Oh, wow this one is a biggie for girls my age actually just girls in general, girls are always putting people down to make them selfs feel better, or because the have a low self esteem, or just because its pretty much a girls second nature...or so it seems anyways...but in the end it always seems to hurt both people, and plus the bible says its wrong, and well yea....putting others down is completely pointless and very hurtful.....
Let no unwholesome words proceed from your mouth , but only such word that is good for edification according to the need of the moment, so that it will give grace to those who hear.(eph. 4:29)
But now you also put them all aside: anger, wrath, malice, slander, and abusive speech from your mouth.(col.3:8)
Lying
Ok, no one likes a liar thats a give in...I mean its one of the ten comandments for petes sake. anyone with any sense at all knows that lying is wrong..... and even people who arent christians still dont like liars....point taken...I would think so...
Therefore, lay aside falsehood, speak the truth each one of you with his neighbor, for we are all members of one another.....(eph.4:25)
Do not lie to one another, since you laid aside your old self with its evil practices(col.3:9)
Complaining
This is probablly one of the tougher ones to follow..it seems like everywhere we go people are complaining about anything and everything, and there is not one thing to say that makes everyone have this great attitude about life and stop complaining, of you catch yourself complaining a lot you probabally just need a heart check and make sure you are right with God because complaining is one of the many signs of not being right with God.
Do all things with out grumbling or disputeting, so that you will prove yourselfs to be blameless and innocent, childeren of god above reproach in the midst of a crooked and pervesr generation, among you appear as lights to the world(phil. 2:14)
Do not complain, brethern, against one another so that you yourselfs may not be judged, behold the judge is standing right at the door.(james5:9)
Judging
I really dont have to much more to say about judging other people I think I covered it well enough in the say no to emo article and these verses speak for themselves as well. Judging is wrong, so dont do it god is the ultimate judge and end the end what he says goes...I think thats simple enough?
Therefore you have no excuse, everyone of youwho passes judgement, for in that which you judge another, you condemn yourself, for you who judge practcice the smae things(romans 2:1)
Who are you to judge the servant of another? to his own master he stands or falls and he will stand, for the lord is able to make him stand(romans14:4)
But you why do you judge your brother? or you again, why do you regaurd your brother with contempt? for we will all stand before the judgement seat of God(romans 14:10)
Foolish Talk
When they talked about the peverted generation, they werent jokin either, almost everything you say has two meanings now, I mean I can almost gareentee if you say the word pickle around a few 12 year old boys the will start rolling on the floor laughing and you were just talking about a veggie...i mean can it get anymore perverted than that? Same goes for the filthy and silly talk you dont have to go a mile from your door step to hear horrible things coming from peoples mouths, its a crazy world we live in i tell ya....crazy!!!
For there must be no filthiness and silly talk, or coarse jesting, which are not fitting, but rather giving of thanks.(eph.5:4)
Cursing Or Dirty Language
My momma always told me that there was no reason to curse and the people who did just sounded stupid and had very small vocabularies and to me when a guy my age goes around cussing in front of me its like he has no respect for me what so ever, and so I have grown to not tolerate cursing at all and when someone does curse infront of me it almost feels like an insult, I mean not so much in movies or when its like people older than me they just sound plain stupid but when its my peers ....its just like come on you guys get a life!!!
But now you also put them all aside: anger, wrath, malice, slander, and abusive speech from your mouth.(col.3:8)
Be Careful!!!
So, thats pretty much all a no brainer guys and im sure you have heard all of that before, but it one more of those things that was put out in the spot light after I went to emo land and realized I needed a serious heart check and attitude adjustment.....and I had some really hateful things said to me before and I have said some pretty hateful things that really hurt a few people that I really care about. And I'm hear to tell you that words can hurt so be careful and think twice about what comes out of your pie hole!!!
You may be wondering, what in the world do you mean smack talk... by smack talk I mean saying stuff to put others down to make yourself feel better, or criticzing for any other reason, complaining, judging, crusing, foolish talk, or lying. Your probablly like yeah, yeah we know how it goes we have heard this all before...and sure you might have but it never hurts to go over and over and over this stuff again because it is very very important in James it says "likewise the tounge is a small part of the body, but it makes great boasts. consider what a great forest is set on fire by a small spark". The tounge also is a fire, a world of evil among the parts of the body it corrupts th whole person, sets the whole course of his life on fire. There is so many verses on this smack talk i could go on for days...but ill try to just get to my point and move on.....
Slander....If You Dont Have Anything Nice To Say Dont Say Anything At All
Oh, wow this one is a biggie for girls my age actually just girls in general, girls are always putting people down to make them selfs feel better, or because the have a low self esteem, or just because its pretty much a girls second nature...or so it seems anyways...but in the end it always seems to hurt both people, and plus the bible says its wrong, and well yea....putting others down is completely pointless and very hurtful.....
Let no unwholesome words proceed from your mouth , but only such word that is good for edification according to the need of the moment, so that it will give grace to those who hear.(eph. 4:29)
But now you also put them all aside: anger, wrath, malice, slander, and abusive speech from your mouth.(col.3:8)
Lying
Ok, no one likes a liar thats a give in...I mean its one of the ten comandments for petes sake. anyone with any sense at all knows that lying is wrong..... and even people who arent christians still dont like liars....point taken...I would think so...
Therefore, lay aside falsehood, speak the truth each one of you with his neighbor, for we are all members of one another.....(eph.4:25)
Do not lie to one another, since you laid aside your old self with its evil practices(col.3:9)
Complaining
This is probablly one of the tougher ones to follow..it seems like everywhere we go people are complaining about anything and everything, and there is not one thing to say that makes everyone have this great attitude about life and stop complaining, of you catch yourself complaining a lot you probabally just need a heart check and make sure you are right with God because complaining is one of the many signs of not being right with God.
Do all things with out grumbling or disputeting, so that you will prove yourselfs to be blameless and innocent, childeren of god above reproach in the midst of a crooked and pervesr generation, among you appear as lights to the world(phil. 2:14)
Do not complain, brethern, against one another so that you yourselfs may not be judged, behold the judge is standing right at the door.(james5:9)
Judging
I really dont have to much more to say about judging other people I think I covered it well enough in the say no to emo article and these verses speak for themselves as well. Judging is wrong, so dont do it god is the ultimate judge and end the end what he says goes...I think thats simple enough?
Therefore you have no excuse, everyone of youwho passes judgement, for in that which you judge another, you condemn yourself, for you who judge practcice the smae things(romans 2:1)
Who are you to judge the servant of another? to his own master he stands or falls and he will stand, for the lord is able to make him stand(romans14:4)
But you why do you judge your brother? or you again, why do you regaurd your brother with contempt? for we will all stand before the judgement seat of God(romans 14:10)
Foolish Talk
When they talked about the peverted generation, they werent jokin either, almost everything you say has two meanings now, I mean I can almost gareentee if you say the word pickle around a few 12 year old boys the will start rolling on the floor laughing and you were just talking about a veggie...i mean can it get anymore perverted than that? Same goes for the filthy and silly talk you dont have to go a mile from your door step to hear horrible things coming from peoples mouths, its a crazy world we live in i tell ya....crazy!!!
For there must be no filthiness and silly talk, or coarse jesting, which are not fitting, but rather giving of thanks.(eph.5:4)
Cursing Or Dirty Language
My momma always told me that there was no reason to curse and the people who did just sounded stupid and had very small vocabularies and to me when a guy my age goes around cussing in front of me its like he has no respect for me what so ever, and so I have grown to not tolerate cursing at all and when someone does curse infront of me it almost feels like an insult, I mean not so much in movies or when its like people older than me they just sound plain stupid but when its my peers ....its just like come on you guys get a life!!!
But now you also put them all aside: anger, wrath, malice, slander, and abusive speech from your mouth.(col.3:8)
Be Careful!!!
So, thats pretty much all a no brainer guys and im sure you have heard all of that before, but it one more of those things that was put out in the spot light after I went to emo land and realized I needed a serious heart check and attitude adjustment.....and I had some really hateful things said to me before and I have said some pretty hateful things that really hurt a few people that I really care about. And I'm hear to tell you that words can hurt so be careful and think twice about what comes out of your pie hole!!!
Thursday, July 5, 2007
SAY NO TO CONFORMITY
Conformity...A Scary, Scary Thing.....
You may be wondering why I am making such a huge deal out of "conformity"...well hey I look around almost everyone is conforming to one thing or another. And for several different reasons such as.....
-they are going through an identity crisis
-they want to feel accepted
-they don’t want their friends to think poorly of them
-they are seeking to fill that hole that only God can fill
and I’m sure these are not the only reasons I’m sure there many other justifications for conforming into something or another....I mean don’t get me wrong there is times when conforming is a good thing like when....
-you conform into a Christian
-yea that’s about it
and we will talk about that too. But what ever happened to people wanting to be their own person and have their own individuality? That was one thing that I don’t know if I mentioned about the Emos, they would look down on people who were "conforming" to their groups but what they didn’t realize is they were conforming into little Emo people...I guess that different...I dunno...? And don’t take this like I’m talking down on the Emos for having double standards...I think it to be quite funny.....Guys in this entry the main thing I want you to get out of it is BE YOUR OWN PERSON..... ITS OK THAT YOUR DIFFERENT AND NOT LIKE EVERYONE ELSE...GOD MADE YOU THAT WAY........STOP THIS CLICKY CRAP.....ITS NOT COOL...AND WE SHOULDNT BE JUDING PEOPLE FOR THEIR DIFFERENCES IF WE WERE ALL THE SAME LIFE WOULD BE BORING!!! Yea...that’s about it.....
Bad...Conformity...Bad
ok I want to break this into two more sections...easy enough...but then when you think about it, this is a super easy subject to give you my opinion about because I’m drowned in situations dealing with this...hello...I’m in high school the conformity database...I mean I think I heard one time that conformity was born in a high school somewhere...I’m not sure though..lol. first of all I never did explain why we are not suppose to conform or why its so bad...Romans 2:12 says, do not conform to the ways of this world but be transformed by the renewing of your mind...and because God said so is a good enough reason for me... I don’t know about you...well lets just go over the reasons I listed above of why people conform in to something there not. I guess well just go down the list...identity crisis...well honey ill tell you exactly who you should be A CHILD OF GOD....um duh...that was really hard...and ill tell you why. God loves you for you even if you are a one eyed one horn flyin purple people eater God loves you all the same babes!!! see when God created you he did it in his own image(Gen. 1 :27), I mean God loves you and know you better than anyone ever will....I mean how many people know how many hairs are on your head huh?(luke12:7) of course heaven forbid you would conform into one of God's children.....ok next...you wanna be excepted, let me tell you if you don’t feel excepted you are hanging out with the wrong group, if you feel like you have to change to fit in....FIND NEW FRIENDS DING BAT YOUR BEAUTIFUL JUST THE WAY YOU ARE!!! and I’m sorry hun, but you cannot fill that hole where God suppose to be no matter how hard you try...trust me....god suppose to be number one in your live for a reason...life usually runs smoother that way if you haven’t already noticed :) so there you go you have no excuses for conforming ha, ha...well I guess you could just deny that you are conforming but I would suggest it because well would be lying...but I’m not going to go into that one!!! I have a feeling you get what I’m going at...so let’s move on...
Conforming ....Good?
Ok, ok, I know your thinking, no way ...after you just when on and on about why you shouldn’t conform now your telling me it’s good? Confused? Well don’t let your panties get all in a knot...I will explain my self give me a sec! There is only one time when conforming is a good thing and that only happens once in your life. When you conform into a Christian.(2 Cor. 5:17) an when this happens everything is conformed, you are a completely different person...guys I’m telling you this is the way to go, you know why..i’m sure some of you do...but I’m going to tell you anyways incase ya don’t because I’m good like that...ha, ha just kidding...anyways ok serious....God is the only friend who will always love you even if you aren’t perfect and you mess up, he will never make you feel like you have to change to be accepted by him, in fact he encourages you to be yourself because he wants the real you not what other people want you to be....so yea get out there and be different stand out because you are not of this world your just passing on through!!!
You may be wondering why I am making such a huge deal out of "conformity"...well hey I look around almost everyone is conforming to one thing or another. And for several different reasons such as.....
-they are going through an identity crisis
-they want to feel accepted
-they don’t want their friends to think poorly of them
-they are seeking to fill that hole that only God can fill
and I’m sure these are not the only reasons I’m sure there many other justifications for conforming into something or another....I mean don’t get me wrong there is times when conforming is a good thing like when....
-you conform into a Christian
-yea that’s about it
and we will talk about that too. But what ever happened to people wanting to be their own person and have their own individuality? That was one thing that I don’t know if I mentioned about the Emos, they would look down on people who were "conforming" to their groups but what they didn’t realize is they were conforming into little Emo people...I guess that different...I dunno...? And don’t take this like I’m talking down on the Emos for having double standards...I think it to be quite funny.....Guys in this entry the main thing I want you to get out of it is BE YOUR OWN PERSON..... ITS OK THAT YOUR DIFFERENT AND NOT LIKE EVERYONE ELSE...GOD MADE YOU THAT WAY........STOP THIS CLICKY CRAP.....ITS NOT COOL...AND WE SHOULDNT BE JUDING PEOPLE FOR THEIR DIFFERENCES IF WE WERE ALL THE SAME LIFE WOULD BE BORING!!! Yea...that’s about it.....
Bad...Conformity...Bad
ok I want to break this into two more sections...easy enough...but then when you think about it, this is a super easy subject to give you my opinion about because I’m drowned in situations dealing with this...hello...I’m in high school the conformity database...I mean I think I heard one time that conformity was born in a high school somewhere...I’m not sure though..lol. first of all I never did explain why we are not suppose to conform or why its so bad...Romans 2:12 says, do not conform to the ways of this world but be transformed by the renewing of your mind...and because God said so is a good enough reason for me... I don’t know about you...well lets just go over the reasons I listed above of why people conform in to something there not. I guess well just go down the list...identity crisis...well honey ill tell you exactly who you should be A CHILD OF GOD....um duh...that was really hard...and ill tell you why. God loves you for you even if you are a one eyed one horn flyin purple people eater God loves you all the same babes!!! see when God created you he did it in his own image(Gen. 1 :27), I mean God loves you and know you better than anyone ever will....I mean how many people know how many hairs are on your head huh?(luke12:7) of course heaven forbid you would conform into one of God's children.....ok next...you wanna be excepted, let me tell you if you don’t feel excepted you are hanging out with the wrong group, if you feel like you have to change to fit in....FIND NEW FRIENDS DING BAT YOUR BEAUTIFUL JUST THE WAY YOU ARE!!! and I’m sorry hun, but you cannot fill that hole where God suppose to be no matter how hard you try...trust me....god suppose to be number one in your live for a reason...life usually runs smoother that way if you haven’t already noticed :) so there you go you have no excuses for conforming ha, ha...well I guess you could just deny that you are conforming but I would suggest it because well would be lying...but I’m not going to go into that one!!! I have a feeling you get what I’m going at...so let’s move on...
Conforming ....Good?
Ok, ok, I know your thinking, no way ...after you just when on and on about why you shouldn’t conform now your telling me it’s good? Confused? Well don’t let your panties get all in a knot...I will explain my self give me a sec! There is only one time when conforming is a good thing and that only happens once in your life. When you conform into a Christian.(2 Cor. 5:17) an when this happens everything is conformed, you are a completely different person...guys I’m telling you this is the way to go, you know why..i’m sure some of you do...but I’m going to tell you anyways incase ya don’t because I’m good like that...ha, ha just kidding...anyways ok serious....God is the only friend who will always love you even if you aren’t perfect and you mess up, he will never make you feel like you have to change to be accepted by him, in fact he encourages you to be yourself because he wants the real you not what other people want you to be....so yea get out there and be different stand out because you are not of this world your just passing on through!!!
Monday, July 2, 2007
SAY NO TO BROKEN HEARTS
He Loves Me, He Loves Me Not……..
Okay before you let them use the whole, “but I love you” line, ask yourself, does he really love you? And some of you might be a little hazy on what true love is, and I just happen to know where you can find an example of what true love is. 1 Cor. 13:4 says love is…..
· Patient
· Kind
· Not jealous
· Does not brag
· Not arrogant
· Does not act unbecomingly
· Does not seek its own
· Does not provoke
· Does not hold grudges or keep record of wrongs
· Bears all things
· Hopes all things
· Endures all things
· Never fails
And I’m sorry guys I don’t care how awesome you boy/girl friend is, the only place you will ever find perfect and complete love like this is God. BUT that does not mean no one else loves you, I’m just saying, if your boy/girl friend is continentally acting in the opposite to the things on this list then it is not love. End of discussion.
Am I To Young To Fall In Love?
Well I’m just going to be straight forward with my opinion right here, ok? Don’t let anyone ever tell you that you are too young to fall in love? I am a firm believer in all is fair in love and war, and age is no exception! But I would encourage you to guard your hearts because falling in love is not always as wonderful as its cut out to be. I fell in love regardless of what my friends and family think,, because I know I did. I cant help that it happened it just kinda did with out me realizing what was happening, and I cant deny the fact that it happened and it just go away either. I had to live with the fact that I fell in love with this guy and nothing could ever happen between us because he wasn’t right for me…but did that keep me from loving him? or course not ....like I said its not as wonderful as Hollywood portrays it to be. But people, if you fall in love don’t let people tell you, you are too young or that it’s wrong because its not. And I will also encourage you not to deny your feelings, I did just that and it tore me up on the inside, and did crazy things to me, it was killing me, and in the end you will just end up confused and sad, okay? Trust me been there done that…not fun!!
Is Dating Bad Or A Waste Of Time?
It’s like this…dating is not bad or waste of time. As long as you are dating with healthy boundaries and good intentions. A lot of people date because they feel like they need a boy/girl friend and they feel like they need to fill that place where God is suppose to be. Some people date because they like the drama that come along with it or because they like the attention and need to feel accepted….or, ok I could go on forever! But actually all the reasons I just listed above are wrong. Good reasons to date or for it not to be a waste of time would be, you are seriously looking for a husband or wife and you are ready to consider finding a mate for life. Or if you are still a little young to be settling down for good, group date and just go out for fun, nothing super serious just to get to know the other person or persons. But if you are trying to have a serious relationship and you are not ready to think about the wedding bells then you are just wasting your time….I mean can you really disagree with me? You are pretty mush just asking for a broken heart, getting emotionally scared, drama, confusion, and severely hurt feelings when you go out for the wrong reasons, and in that case I would say dating is bad and a waste of time. Its pretty simple, but yet then again in the world we live in today where little kindergarteners say they are “going out”, now I’m sorry but that right there is wrong, I mean come on guys, have some common sense before you hurt yourselves.
Broken Hearts Are No Fun…..
If you have been hurt in the past by someone and you thought you were going to die… I know exactly how that feels and it stinks, but I promise there is a light at the end of the tunnel. You may be like easy for you to say …actually it wasn’t that easy….it took months and months of me holding on to God by my finger tips of my heart. Some days I still get really depressed and discouraged and I just get that feeling like I want to shrivel up and die. But if you can find a way to cope (that is not harmful to you) you will be a lot better off I can tell you a few ideas but everyone is different and Its not like I have the cure for all your problems or anything…but some things I did were well first of all I had to forgive him and then I spent a lot of time by myself, I called it my “quiet time” away from everything and did things that I had put off during the relationship because I got so rapped up in pleasing him, I never really thought “I think I’m going to paint my nails” or “I think I will read a book” instead I was like “why didn’t he call me”, “is he mad at me”, “what did I do”? I know it sounds kinda stupid but that was reality for the extent of the relationship. And I bet if you look back and you are honest with yourself at some point you did too. So take sometime, paint your nails, go shopping eat chocolate, o and burry anything that reminds you of him in a ten foot hole and cover it with concrete…it worked for me!!!!
Okay before you let them use the whole, “but I love you” line, ask yourself, does he really love you? And some of you might be a little hazy on what true love is, and I just happen to know where you can find an example of what true love is. 1 Cor. 13:4 says love is…..
· Patient
· Kind
· Not jealous
· Does not brag
· Not arrogant
· Does not act unbecomingly
· Does not seek its own
· Does not provoke
· Does not hold grudges or keep record of wrongs
· Bears all things
· Hopes all things
· Endures all things
· Never fails
And I’m sorry guys I don’t care how awesome you boy/girl friend is, the only place you will ever find perfect and complete love like this is God. BUT that does not mean no one else loves you, I’m just saying, if your boy/girl friend is continentally acting in the opposite to the things on this list then it is not love. End of discussion.
Am I To Young To Fall In Love?
Well I’m just going to be straight forward with my opinion right here, ok? Don’t let anyone ever tell you that you are too young to fall in love? I am a firm believer in all is fair in love and war, and age is no exception! But I would encourage you to guard your hearts because falling in love is not always as wonderful as its cut out to be. I fell in love regardless of what my friends and family think,, because I know I did. I cant help that it happened it just kinda did with out me realizing what was happening, and I cant deny the fact that it happened and it just go away either. I had to live with the fact that I fell in love with this guy and nothing could ever happen between us because he wasn’t right for me…but did that keep me from loving him? or course not ....like I said its not as wonderful as Hollywood portrays it to be. But people, if you fall in love don’t let people tell you, you are too young or that it’s wrong because its not. And I will also encourage you not to deny your feelings, I did just that and it tore me up on the inside, and did crazy things to me, it was killing me, and in the end you will just end up confused and sad, okay? Trust me been there done that…not fun!!
Is Dating Bad Or A Waste Of Time?
It’s like this…dating is not bad or waste of time. As long as you are dating with healthy boundaries and good intentions. A lot of people date because they feel like they need a boy/girl friend and they feel like they need to fill that place where God is suppose to be. Some people date because they like the drama that come along with it or because they like the attention and need to feel accepted….or, ok I could go on forever! But actually all the reasons I just listed above are wrong. Good reasons to date or for it not to be a waste of time would be, you are seriously looking for a husband or wife and you are ready to consider finding a mate for life. Or if you are still a little young to be settling down for good, group date and just go out for fun, nothing super serious just to get to know the other person or persons. But if you are trying to have a serious relationship and you are not ready to think about the wedding bells then you are just wasting your time….I mean can you really disagree with me? You are pretty mush just asking for a broken heart, getting emotionally scared, drama, confusion, and severely hurt feelings when you go out for the wrong reasons, and in that case I would say dating is bad and a waste of time. Its pretty simple, but yet then again in the world we live in today where little kindergarteners say they are “going out”, now I’m sorry but that right there is wrong, I mean come on guys, have some common sense before you hurt yourselves.
Broken Hearts Are No Fun…..
If you have been hurt in the past by someone and you thought you were going to die… I know exactly how that feels and it stinks, but I promise there is a light at the end of the tunnel. You may be like easy for you to say …actually it wasn’t that easy….it took months and months of me holding on to God by my finger tips of my heart. Some days I still get really depressed and discouraged and I just get that feeling like I want to shrivel up and die. But if you can find a way to cope (that is not harmful to you) you will be a lot better off I can tell you a few ideas but everyone is different and Its not like I have the cure for all your problems or anything…but some things I did were well first of all I had to forgive him and then I spent a lot of time by myself, I called it my “quiet time” away from everything and did things that I had put off during the relationship because I got so rapped up in pleasing him, I never really thought “I think I’m going to paint my nails” or “I think I will read a book” instead I was like “why didn’t he call me”, “is he mad at me”, “what did I do”? I know it sounds kinda stupid but that was reality for the extent of the relationship. And I bet if you look back and you are honest with yourself at some point you did too. So take sometime, paint your nails, go shopping eat chocolate, o and burry anything that reminds you of him in a ten foot hole and cover it with concrete…it worked for me!!!!
Sunday, July 1, 2007
SAY NO TO EMO
Introduction
Ok I have to be honest with you out of all the books and articles I have read I most always skip the intro. I never really saw the point or thought it necessary but now as I sit here late at night or super early in the morning writing a book of my own I’m beginning to understand. The intro is like a taste or a sample of all I have to tell you in this wonderful book you are about to read. So read it real fast and I will try to make it short, sweet and to the point…..
Well how about that title to my Emo lovers out there? I know it sounds really harsh or like I’m dissing you, but trust me I’m not. If anything I should be thanking you, you opened my eyes to so much, and you also taught me one of the most important things I will ever learn. Ready for it….trust god with all your heart and put him first before everything in your life because he is the only one who will never fail you. I know you guys are thinking were in the world did you get that from hanging out with us, well I’m about to tell you. Along with everything else you lovely dear Emos taught me during my 3 month trip to Emo land…..
Say No To Emo
See at this very moment I am unable to sleep because I have all these ideas running through my head, and I’m really struggling to find peace and comfort though I continue to search for it harder than ever, hoping, because if I don’t hope, if I don’t have faith that God will come through for me even though my friends, family, and even my ex-boyfriend who I trusted more than anyone can’t…it would be so easy to start to turn into one of them again. And to be one of them I would mean my priorities would shift and God would no longer be first on my list and I would begin to try to fill that hole, that spot, with other things like attention from others, drugs, alcohol, trashy music, boyfriends, cutting, and the list goes on and on. See what I have discovered is being a follower of CHRIST is HARD. You have to have FAITH and that scares us, so instead of turning to God and trusting him we put our trust into the other things I listed above. What people don’t realize is when they try to fill this hole they are really searching for God subconsciously because it’s the only thing that will work there. But what they don’t get and the question they keep asking themselves is why these things keep failing me. Well I will tell you why from experience, I was one of many who tried to replace God with other people or things because short term they are easier to trust because you can see them and interact with them so easily but in the end the only person who will never fail you is God, period. Don’t get me wrong Emos are defiantly not the only ones who are trying to replace God in their lives, everyday we encounter many different kinds of people but have the time we are justifying them doing so, and we don’t even see it. The only reason I use Emos as my example is because, well lets just say I did some Emo bonding for a few months and over that time is when I really got to understand what they are all about, and you know what I gathered? They are exactly like me, the only difference is they are still trying to fill Gods place, that hole in their hearts with other things they are still putting their trust in their “friends” instead of God. As a result they are getting hurt and then their hearts get harder and harder as time goes as they continuously keep getting hurt. I’m telling you it is a more slippery slope than Crisco on a plastic tarp guys, it’s scary! And once you start this evil little cycle it’s hard to break it.
So Different…Yet So Much The Same
Okay, so what I have notice about these wonderful people that we as the youth have labeled “Emos” (and other people of all sorts of course). They tend to shut people out who are not like themselves. Most people would dismiss this as them being judgmental, but I’m here to tell you that it is so much more than that….i mean true to some extent they are being judgmental, but it is also because these people are afraid of being judged. When I was trying to really connect with these people and get to know them I found it much difficult, it was almost as if they had put these walls around themselves when I was around. They also acted like they had to be someone they weren’t, just because I wasn’t Emo. They would always have the same excuse every time I would ask them something “we are so different there is no way you could relate” or “we come from completely different worlds”. Ever since I can remember the world has been sending out the message that we are so different from each other, that no one can really relate to one another’s circumstances, and no one else can really know how you feel. Which is a big fat lie! I mean yes we are different and no circumstance is exactly the same, but we are not as different as the world portrays us to be. We all fall in love, we all get our hearts broken, we all get excited, anxious, nervous, mad, and sad, we all go through trails and hard times, and yea some are harder than others. I agree, but that doesn’t mean other people can’t relate or understand what you are going through. So that’s really it they are afraid of rejection and judgment because the are continuously getting hurt by people they think they can trust and replace God with. Or sometimes these people who don’t trust people are searching for God and don’t even know it yet.
Judging Emofied
Wow, this is probably going to be the trickiest subject to talk about because it’s so controversial. But one thing I put together that I thought was pretty funny though is the Emos are always upset and complaining about other people judging them for the way they look, what music they listen to, the way they talk, or for many other reasons they are judged and how not fair it is. But then its ok for them to turn around and do the same exact thing to anyone who is not their own. You know what that it is called….in security. How they reason and justify this does not make much sense to me at all, I mean what do you think, I mean people getting upset for people judging them so to make up for it they are going to do it right back…yea that’s real mature. And let me tell you this doesn’t just go on between the Emos and the preps in high school it goes on between any two groups and any age you can think of. I mean whether you want to admit it or not we have all been judged and what is our reaction… we lash back of course! Yepp, that’s what I thought, pretty sad, huh? I’m not trying to be like sham on you, you little judger person I’m just like guys, lets change the tide a little and break the cycle? What do ya think? You up for the challenge?
In The End The Emos Ate My Boyfriend
Okay I want to tell you guys a little story! I know, I know you r so excited you can hardly stand it, try to hold back the excitement for me, ok? See in sixth grad I met this boy in band. He was really nice, and funny, and smart. Not to mention the first boy that ever liked me. To keep the story going lets just say I had a huge crush on him all through sixth grade….and seventh grade…..and eighth grade. I got him to go to youth group and by the end of his seventh grade he had accepted Jesus as his personal savior. But things started to change in eighth grade. See, Daniel met the Emos in eight grade, he actually dated one for two weeks, but it just wasn’t meant to be…THANK GOD!! But I guess this was the beginning of the Emo adventures. Don’t get me wrong these so called “Emo adventure” were very important and I would almost venture to say the were a vital part of me growing up. But poor Daniel is just another example that you become who you hang out with, he just never woke up. And guys if you get anything out of this section I hope it would be that it is so easy to step down from your morals and expectations rather than to expect your friends to step up to them, and you might loose a few so called friends in doing this. But I promise you it will pay off in the end…stand strong.
Emo Verses
Ok, you guys should know this by now...but just so the emos dont think im picking on them...anyone could relate to these verses, its just when i read them i thought it sounded like somrthing for this wonderful crowd...i mean if it offends you, im sorry....its the bible....but yea like i said it can apply to anyone and everyone....
Being darkened in their understanding, excluded from the life of God because of ignorance that is in them, because of the hardness of there heart, and they, having become callous, having given themselves over to sensuality for the practice of every kind of impurity with greediness. but you did not learn christ in this way, if indeed you have heard Him, and have been taught in Him, just as truth is in Jesus, that, in reference to your former manner of life, you lay aside the old self, which is being corrupted in accordance witht he lusts and deceit, and that you be renewed in the spirt of your mind. and put on the new self, which in the likeness of God has been created in righteousness and holiness of the truth.(eph.4:18-24)
But immorality or any impurity or greed must not be named among you, as is proper among saints.(eph.5:3)
Ok I have to be honest with you out of all the books and articles I have read I most always skip the intro. I never really saw the point or thought it necessary but now as I sit here late at night or super early in the morning writing a book of my own I’m beginning to understand. The intro is like a taste or a sample of all I have to tell you in this wonderful book you are about to read. So read it real fast and I will try to make it short, sweet and to the point…..
Well how about that title to my Emo lovers out there? I know it sounds really harsh or like I’m dissing you, but trust me I’m not. If anything I should be thanking you, you opened my eyes to so much, and you also taught me one of the most important things I will ever learn. Ready for it….trust god with all your heart and put him first before everything in your life because he is the only one who will never fail you. I know you guys are thinking were in the world did you get that from hanging out with us, well I’m about to tell you. Along with everything else you lovely dear Emos taught me during my 3 month trip to Emo land…..
Say No To Emo
See at this very moment I am unable to sleep because I have all these ideas running through my head, and I’m really struggling to find peace and comfort though I continue to search for it harder than ever, hoping, because if I don’t hope, if I don’t have faith that God will come through for me even though my friends, family, and even my ex-boyfriend who I trusted more than anyone can’t…it would be so easy to start to turn into one of them again. And to be one of them I would mean my priorities would shift and God would no longer be first on my list and I would begin to try to fill that hole, that spot, with other things like attention from others, drugs, alcohol, trashy music, boyfriends, cutting, and the list goes on and on. See what I have discovered is being a follower of CHRIST is HARD. You have to have FAITH and that scares us, so instead of turning to God and trusting him we put our trust into the other things I listed above. What people don’t realize is when they try to fill this hole they are really searching for God subconsciously because it’s the only thing that will work there. But what they don’t get and the question they keep asking themselves is why these things keep failing me. Well I will tell you why from experience, I was one of many who tried to replace God with other people or things because short term they are easier to trust because you can see them and interact with them so easily but in the end the only person who will never fail you is God, period. Don’t get me wrong Emos are defiantly not the only ones who are trying to replace God in their lives, everyday we encounter many different kinds of people but have the time we are justifying them doing so, and we don’t even see it. The only reason I use Emos as my example is because, well lets just say I did some Emo bonding for a few months and over that time is when I really got to understand what they are all about, and you know what I gathered? They are exactly like me, the only difference is they are still trying to fill Gods place, that hole in their hearts with other things they are still putting their trust in their “friends” instead of God. As a result they are getting hurt and then their hearts get harder and harder as time goes as they continuously keep getting hurt. I’m telling you it is a more slippery slope than Crisco on a plastic tarp guys, it’s scary! And once you start this evil little cycle it’s hard to break it.
So Different…Yet So Much The Same
Okay, so what I have notice about these wonderful people that we as the youth have labeled “Emos” (and other people of all sorts of course). They tend to shut people out who are not like themselves. Most people would dismiss this as them being judgmental, but I’m here to tell you that it is so much more than that….i mean true to some extent they are being judgmental, but it is also because these people are afraid of being judged. When I was trying to really connect with these people and get to know them I found it much difficult, it was almost as if they had put these walls around themselves when I was around. They also acted like they had to be someone they weren’t, just because I wasn’t Emo. They would always have the same excuse every time I would ask them something “we are so different there is no way you could relate” or “we come from completely different worlds”. Ever since I can remember the world has been sending out the message that we are so different from each other, that no one can really relate to one another’s circumstances, and no one else can really know how you feel. Which is a big fat lie! I mean yes we are different and no circumstance is exactly the same, but we are not as different as the world portrays us to be. We all fall in love, we all get our hearts broken, we all get excited, anxious, nervous, mad, and sad, we all go through trails and hard times, and yea some are harder than others. I agree, but that doesn’t mean other people can’t relate or understand what you are going through. So that’s really it they are afraid of rejection and judgment because the are continuously getting hurt by people they think they can trust and replace God with. Or sometimes these people who don’t trust people are searching for God and don’t even know it yet.
Judging Emofied
Wow, this is probably going to be the trickiest subject to talk about because it’s so controversial. But one thing I put together that I thought was pretty funny though is the Emos are always upset and complaining about other people judging them for the way they look, what music they listen to, the way they talk, or for many other reasons they are judged and how not fair it is. But then its ok for them to turn around and do the same exact thing to anyone who is not their own. You know what that it is called….in security. How they reason and justify this does not make much sense to me at all, I mean what do you think, I mean people getting upset for people judging them so to make up for it they are going to do it right back…yea that’s real mature. And let me tell you this doesn’t just go on between the Emos and the preps in high school it goes on between any two groups and any age you can think of. I mean whether you want to admit it or not we have all been judged and what is our reaction… we lash back of course! Yepp, that’s what I thought, pretty sad, huh? I’m not trying to be like sham on you, you little judger person I’m just like guys, lets change the tide a little and break the cycle? What do ya think? You up for the challenge?
In The End The Emos Ate My Boyfriend
Okay I want to tell you guys a little story! I know, I know you r so excited you can hardly stand it, try to hold back the excitement for me, ok? See in sixth grad I met this boy in band. He was really nice, and funny, and smart. Not to mention the first boy that ever liked me. To keep the story going lets just say I had a huge crush on him all through sixth grade….and seventh grade…..and eighth grade. I got him to go to youth group and by the end of his seventh grade he had accepted Jesus as his personal savior. But things started to change in eighth grade. See, Daniel met the Emos in eight grade, he actually dated one for two weeks, but it just wasn’t meant to be…THANK GOD!! But I guess this was the beginning of the Emo adventures. Don’t get me wrong these so called “Emo adventure” were very important and I would almost venture to say the were a vital part of me growing up. But poor Daniel is just another example that you become who you hang out with, he just never woke up. And guys if you get anything out of this section I hope it would be that it is so easy to step down from your morals and expectations rather than to expect your friends to step up to them, and you might loose a few so called friends in doing this. But I promise you it will pay off in the end…stand strong.
Emo Verses
Ok, you guys should know this by now...but just so the emos dont think im picking on them...anyone could relate to these verses, its just when i read them i thought it sounded like somrthing for this wonderful crowd...i mean if it offends you, im sorry....its the bible....but yea like i said it can apply to anyone and everyone....
Being darkened in their understanding, excluded from the life of God because of ignorance that is in them, because of the hardness of there heart, and they, having become callous, having given themselves over to sensuality for the practice of every kind of impurity with greediness. but you did not learn christ in this way, if indeed you have heard Him, and have been taught in Him, just as truth is in Jesus, that, in reference to your former manner of life, you lay aside the old self, which is being corrupted in accordance witht he lusts and deceit, and that you be renewed in the spirt of your mind. and put on the new self, which in the likeness of God has been created in righteousness and holiness of the truth.(eph.4:18-24)
But immorality or any impurity or greed must not be named among you, as is proper among saints.(eph.5:3)
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