SAY NO TO DEPRESSION

ME....DEPRESSED.....NO WAY!!!

At first you maybe denie that your even depressed...I did. I completely pulled away from my family, my best friends, and anyone else who tried to talk to me about what was wrong. I didnt know how to explain to then how I felt and in the pit of my depression I truely didnt think anyone cared, and I really didnt feel like I could trust anyone. Of course I was completely wrong about about that but depression can really mess with your head and emotions. I couldnt stand to hang out with my friends anymore, when I got home from school and on the weekends I wanted to just lock myself in my room and cry. The funny thing is at night when I was too tired to cry and I couldnt fall asleep I would open up my bible and read and almost instantly I was at peace and could rest I continued to do this for several months just reading the bible and asking God for peace but not really handing over my situation to him. So I continued to struggle for several more months with depression and by this point I felt dead on the end side and wondered why I felt like God had left me to fend for myself because I was reading my bible and praying constantly, for just a little hint of peace and comfort. It finally hit me how far I had fell when one night at a basketball tourney in between games I went outside to get some freash air and began to bawl because I was so confused and hurt and depressed I cried out to God and this time there was no peace that usually followed, in fact I felt more or less dead on the end side like i wasnt even myself anymore.so, i took a peice of broken glass that was outside and made what I thought was a small cut on my knee. After I did it it was like what in the world did I just do....oh my gosh I need to be put in a mental hospital, I've gone nuts!!! It was the first secret I ever kept from my parents, not until I broke down and told them was I able to recover and heal from it. I couldnt completely recover until I decided that I couldnt do anything to make my depression go away I and to give up and let God fix it. And almost a year leater I can say I have finail come out of that slump and feel a lot stronger and more mature than I did before. I think when I turned to God for help he took as a teaching oportunity and made me a stronger person.

WHAT YOU CAN DO ABOUT DEPRESSION

I coulnt completely recover until I decided that I couldnt do anthing to make my depression go away. I had to let go and let god fix it. And almost a year later I stand here and say I final climbed out of the deephole, the slump. And the crazy part is I feel stronger and more mature than i did before depression hit. i think what happened is when i turned to god at the end of mt rope he took advantage of the situation and made it a teaching oportunity to make me a stronger person. there is absolutly nothing you or anyone can do to make you not depressed. dont let anyone tell you that you have a bad attitude or need to clean up your act because if you are seriously depressed, you are emotionally and possible even spirtually ill. the thing is there is nothing you can do but give it to God, i would suggest you trying to fix it your self. you will just get more depressed because you wont be able to fix it. you may feel better for a little while but depression is like a virus...it can continously come back to haunt you when you get stress out, sick, or i discovered even when i got tired i would start to flip out again...depression is a scary thing guys, please dont mess around with it.

CUTTING,SUICIDE, AND OTHER STUPID THINGS PEOPLE DO WHEN THEY ARE DEPRESSED...

I don't want to spend a lot of time on this subject, well mainly because there is not much to say on it. My hope is some girl, or guy who was just as lost and depressed as I was or maybe even worst gets a hold of this. If I could tell the girl that found this that was struggling so much that she cut herself the first thing I would tell her is that there is hope. Second I would telll her to find someone she trust and go tell on herself, get it out in the open, tell a pastor, a teacher, a parent, whoever, TELL SOMEONE. I beg of you it will just keep getting worse if you dont tell someone trust me. Even though it may be the hardest thing you ever have to do, even if you think that your parents are going to be disappointed or even kill you TELL SOMEONE!!! Oh, and the last thing I think I would tell this girl is to STOP, stop cutting yourself you are Gods temple, you are a child of God, his creation and everytime you hurt yourself, your hurting God. please there is hope, tell on yourself and stop hurting yourself and I promise you it willl get better. PLEASE.... I've been there guys, I've got the scares to proof it, as you read this your impression is probably that im full of crap.....but I've been where you are and it hurts, if you don't do something about it, it will destroy you outside within. Make the decision and do something about it, its hard and its humbling, but the end willl justify the pain it took to get you there.

Obviously I didnt do this, because if I did I would be dead. Did you just catch what I said you would be DEAD forever, after you do the deed there is no going back, its permenat. And I'm not going to sit up on a soap box and preach to you. Truthfully I dont have anything else to say about this. Its your choice. But I can gaurenntee you that no situation is bad enough or too big for God. Before you make a decsion that could change your life for eternity....yes eternity.....stop and think.

Thats pretty much it guys, I mean there is a lot more I could say on all this stuff. When your in deep depression for over a year you kinda find out a lot of stuff. But, I like to keep things simple. I don't want to bore you with me just blabing on and on about something that you may not be able to relate to so I'm going to leave this one open to you guys. This is pretty much what this blog is based off, me fighting through and finally getting through this struggle of depression. All the stuff I have written so far is some how connnected so if you guys have any questions on any of them, let me know, shoot me a comment. I mean I don't have all the answers dont get me wrong but if you are struggling with something, I've been through a lot of stuff lately and I'm here for you if you need me!!!

Oh, this verse that I found helped me too, check it out!!! Psalms 116:1-2 I love the Lord, for he heard my voice; he heard my cry for mercy. Because he turned his ear to me, I will call on him as long as I live. If nothing else guys if there is no one you think you can trust, as I did, the one person I can guarrentee that will never lead you astray is God, give it all to him babe, he's the only one who matters anyways!!!