SAY YES

ok so i have decided i have entered a new season in my life which calls for a new chapter in my blog/ book in the making. so i have decided i am done saying no for now, im going to start saying yes, there was still a few more areas of the say no section i wanted to touch on and i will probably finish thoughs up some time but its time to start saying yes.

believe it or not, all the stuff i have been struggling in the past has faded away. of course i have new stuff to deal with now. but i can stand tall and say i am no longer depressed or stuggling in the areas i have learned to just say no to. but the key you know of saying no is to yes to god.without god if you get stuck in a rut you better get comfty because your not going anywhere. and in my case i had gotten comfotable in my rut and didnt want to leave. in fact i didnt know i was even in a rut until i was out. i had to jump out of my comfort zone and hold on to god for my dear life. i had to completely separate myself from the people and things that were doing me no good and let god place me in a completely new senario. of course that scared me to death and i didnt think i was ready but..oh was i ready. if only i knew before, what i know now. the plans he had for me were oh so much better.

within two weeks of my new decision to let go and let god, god blessed me with a boyfriend. not just any boy friend but one who actually cares about and now actually loves me. and if you have read my previous blogs you would know that that is a big step all in itself. but that was not all god blessed me with in this decision. he also freed me from a ton of stuff. he blessed me with all new friends. what he did for me was like a breath of fresh air.

ok and looking at me know about 9 months later. still with my amazing boyfriend and friends god has given me i still dont have it figured out. but threw the whole emo thing, i really have come along ways and learned a ton. most people when they see me know could never have guessed i went through a six month period were i was so depressed i didnt want to talk to anyone. most people would never strike me as the girl that hung out with the wrong crowd. god has blessed me tremendously. i never can tell were he is going with stuff but im glad he is in control and not me...thats all i have to say.

and for those of you who have been reading this as i heal. thank you. thank you. thank you. you guys my support me the world to me. and i wouldnt be were i am today without you.